1. what do you notice first: the smile..must be really wide..
2. last person you slow danced with: Izzat..at my cousin's party..he is my cousin's friend..he so cute and tall!!
3. worst question to ask: hmmm...Do you have aids?
4. who makes you laugh the most: Ikhsan..
5. who makes you smile: the guys i hang around with..
6. do you have a crush on anyone: yesh!
7. who has a crush on you: dont know..dont care..

did nuttin much except watch tv all day..
reallie thats all that i did today..
its as if i didnt have anymore exams to sit for
when my real exam is actuallie my O levels..
haizzzz..

been thinking..
a Question of the Day for Me: Why do people always get depressed over love???
No reallie..
this is not about me..
its actuallie about erfan...
well was talking to erfan,shah and abg syam
that time..
then suddenly, erf blurted out about death..
hmmm sumtin about why we should continue on
when there's no more rainbows for us to admire,
no comfort zone for us to lean on...
its like we're living in darkness so why shouldn't we
just end it all together??
now i was damn speechless when i heard tis
tho' i knew the reason damn well he's like tat..
its just that erf's a bubbly,gregarious kind of dude..
verieee sarcastic,very kerazee and stuff
but because of a girl ( a girl my friends!),
his life just takes a whole meaning..
meaning of depression i mean..
sometimes i wonder,
why do people always have to hurt the other person?
i mean don't we all have feelings,
don't we all want to share the same happiness together,
don't we want someone we can lean on just in case we feel lyk
falling down..
don't we want all that??
hmm...sometimez i just wonder....
why do people we put our whole hearts out for
just take our fragile hearts and play with it as if its a toy to them..
this is how i see in friendships,relationships,marriage or wad-eva stuff..
its lyk this;
they take our hearts,took care of it with special love and attention
and when they feel lyk they have enuff of it,
they just kick it and bruise it lyk as if it doesn't hurt at all..
i mean....
why?why?why?why?
i reallie wanna know the answer...
and people always say they know everyting..
oh so many questions left unanswered and shelved aside..
haizzz...

but i have a bit to say to all those out there;
Whatever your relationship is,look at it thru the eyes of pure love.
Give that pure love.
It can open doors of bliss and joy that you never knew existed.....
haizzz...
so emo...
never mind,
im tryna think like an 18 yr old remember...
hee...

gotta return to my sofa and
slump myself in front of the Tv...
couch potato for a day.

I have some good news today, at least for me. ;0) I'm finally getting rid of my Dial-up connection and getting a Cable Modem! Tomorrow they will be here installing it and it's going to be soooo cool! I'm so sick of losing my connection every few minutes (on somedays, like today) and don't even get me started on the shitty download times!

Today is my 3rd day of working out. I'm going to be very dedicated to this until I lose what I want to lose. I'm so sore today, but I still managed to work out for about an hour and 15 minutes. This morning I stretched, did pilates for about a half hour, then did yoga for a half hour and finished off with about 10 inutes of meditation. I feel sooo good. Not sure what I'm going to do tomorrow but tonight I'm going to swim at dads just to get some cardio time in.

Last night, I watched a couple movies with Pete. We watched "Bad Santa" and I thought it SUCKED. Billy Bob Thorton is so vile in that movie and he is so gross-looking to top it, that I just didn't see the humor in it or find it entertaining in any way... and I usually like movies with raw humor like that. I don't recommend it ...I can honestly say that I maybe chuckled once. We also watched "The Butterfly effect" I really liked it. The story was good and it was interesting to watch. It's like Sliding doors...like what would have happened if you did this or did that...but this guy keeps going back and changing his life to make it perfect, but only keeps making it worse. The ending is good and overall I give it a 4 out of 5 stars. And not just because Ashton Kutcher is in it! I had to beg Pete to let me get this movie...he knows I like Ashton...but even he said that he really liked the movie!

After the movie, Pete and I stayed up until 3 in the morning doing some ungodly things...I'm actually kind of worried now, though. We got caught up in the moment and one thing led to another and we put the protection on later in the game that I would have liked. I swear, I had the best intentions the whole time, I was prepared, but he makes me forget when he gets me like that. Personally, I think that he needs to be a little more proactive when it comes to BC and he isn't. He pouts and on top of that refuses to do the snip. I know he wants me to have another baby...but I'm not willing to go there, yet...if ever. If only he weren't so passionate sometimes, it wouldn't even be an issue, but then again I don't want that to change either. At this point ,all I can do is keep my fingers crossed.


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How to make a Margella
Ingredients:
1 part competetiveness
5 parts ambition
3 parts beauty
Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little sadness if desired!



Lovingly planted by: BoBo!!

so fucking god damn bloody tired!! woo feel so shiok i can post anything i want here.. no more restrictions the previous blog at blackbistro.com has too many restrictions.. cos there are too many friends/ppl reading my posts. So sometimes i can't write wat i want but NOW i can write abt anything i want! i know i'm not gonna row for the PM cup.. but fuck it! I'm just gonna train as hard. Will decide on my future once the race is over.. was planning for the god damn timetable just now.. i hope i can get the GE i want. There are bloody lectures on sat... so now i need to find time for tution! woo... shit. i hate Computer engin man.. full of stinky ah nehs and idiotic ah tiongs.. !!

After some canoodling by Nay (oh and a nice back and butt rub)....LOL I have decided that I will go back to my Yahoo! IM thing. What have I been doing on AIM all this time, when Yahoo has so much more cool stuff? I will still have the same one I used to have (MargienPete) so If you want to send me some love notes or hate notes, or just want to talk dirty...ahem.... you can find me there now. so I am totally excited about tomorrow...I need to think of something to wear, I can't wear my sweats to go see Matt Damon.

Daigoro Tachibana as Osei, the GeishaI could go on about Enon, but I won't. Mainly because I know jackbooger about them. I watched Zatoichi today. It's hilarious, it's sad, it's disgusting, it's beautiful, it's everything and I absolutely loved it. I think it's what makes a great film, being able to successfully make the audience feel different emotions within the span of a couple of hours. I highly recommend it, even if you don't understand Japanese, just sit there if you like and watch blood literally spit out of most of the cast. Beautiful isn't she? Well, if you're not aware, this is a 17-year-old guy. Seriously. Daigoro Tachibana isn't just some actor who got dressed up for this particular role. He is a Kabuki (Japanese theatre) performer who plays the role of women. It's no joke! He actually studies women and the way we behave. He's pretty damn good at it. I'd have to agree with him when he said, "Many people say that a role of a woman played by a boy is more attractive because (this means that) men are able to find out what makes a woman attractive." Even the fact that he has the guts to dress as a woman and make her look so dignified and flawless is admirable. You can read more about him [here] by the way.

These are some bandnames we've come up with - well, 40% of the band. # Panclocks # FEZ # Cosmic Jacuzzi # Sweater Lint # Wooden Spoon # Damn Straight Anything related to Adam Sandler is a potential. 'Cause Adam Sandler owns! Why are those bullets round? Uncircle thyself damn it! Floss Thy Teeth And Start A Band. I ended up going to see my brother's band, Soul Junction, perform at the Sala Session. It was absolutely brilliant! Well, there was one band whose singers sucked bare bottom juice... *cough*Feedback*cough* But other than that, the night was well worth $7 if not more. I went with a couple of friends and we came came home so fired up and inspired to start our own band - something I've been hungry for for the last couple of months. I'm the bassist, Mimz is our guitarist, my sister is the keyboardist, Ruby as uhh... we don't know yet, and Mimz' sister as our drummer. Although I am excited, I have a wretched feeling it probably won't happen, seeing that Mimz and her sister are hardly home. I can see it now, it'll just be my sister and I who will actually make it to band practice. It's worth a try I guess... doinutt had a brain fart at 7:35 pm Are you in?

I don't quite understand how simple-mindedness is a problem. It's actually a positive trait, in my opinion. It's hard to find things to worry about and you enjoy simple pleasures in life. Easy! "Frugality is one of the most beautiful and joyful words in the English language, and yet one that we are culturally cut off from understanding and enjoying. The consumption society has made us feel that happiness lies in having things, and has failed to teach us the happiness of not having things." - Elise Boulding

Working on: Finishing Design course Fact: I cut my own hair. Go on, greet me. I have no friends. Another pointless day in Uni. When will I ever learn? Here's a screenshot from my latest piece of ACE. In this shot, Will is about to slip on her helmet as hard rock music play in the background. _shit won't work, neways-

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